Alt text: Scene from Kung Fu Panda, depicting Oogwa as relieved, saying “Finally, inner peace”. End alt text.
Figured I’d ask a positive question. For me it was the first time I’d put on estrogen. The HUGE relief I felt… and a few months in when I no longer felt I’d needed a breast form.
I saw gals describe their first time on E as seeing everything in a much more vibrant tint, but I didn’t experience that. - is that really a thing, or is it more metaphorical? :3
When I get misgendered and I just dont care about it anymore. Happens only when I dress more masculine or have my motorcycle gear on.
I am content with my body and gender after all the years on E and surgeries. No cis nonsense can do anything about it.
Death.
🐢
Strong shell and feets for marching!
But also being a girl is just cool as fuck. A hell of a lot less suicidal than being a man, that’s for fucking sure.
when I see myself in the mirror, most days I’m seeing Nikki there anymore and it never gets old :)
I’ll let you know when I find out. It’s either going to be E or bathing in the blood of the vanquished (depending on whether or not the E works).
Lots of things have given me this, most recently it’s been just putting leggings on, everything being smooth, not having to worry about my now nonexistent penis showing. It’s pure bliss.
PENIS DESTRUCTOR 100 :3
Longing for that day too, tbh. If I may ask, what’s recovery times for bottom surgery like? Would I need a lot of medicine for the initial weeks? I’m also considering it but not sure how much it’ll hurt.
It depends a lot on where you get it done. They have different procedures and care routines in the US/Asia/Europe. I’m in Germany and I was in hospital for two weeks, then at home for another two recovering 90% of the time and from then on I slowly started to go back to normal life. I’m now almost 8 weeks post-op and I’m back to work since week 6 and doing everything like I did before surgery. Working out is still a no-no theoretically but I don’t work out anyway lol.
They gave me pretty heavy painkillers in the hospital but ever since coming back home I’ve not taken any and haven’t felt any pain in the area.
Ah, Nachbärin! Germany, close to me (🇳🇱). Wonderful, I’m so happy for you :D
I hope you feel much better!! I hope you celebrated it with a Blåhaj and nice food!
Do they offer surgeries in Germany in where you can get a self-lubricating vagina? What are all the options?
Ohh wat leuk haha! I celebrated a lot! Getting surgery was life-saving for me and my bottom dysphoria got so bad over the last year I’m so so glad I had the privilege to have surgery. As for options I didn’t really have any because I went to one of the very few (maybe the only one? I’m not sure) clinics that had less than a 2-3 year wait and they only offered standard penile inversion with some special enhancement only they do. To be completely honest with you I didn’t care much about the method or the details of getting one exact type of surgery. For me, just getting rid of my penis was the most important thing above all, by all means possible. I don’t know if I would’ve been able to wait years for a clinic that offers any other method so it wasn’t really a choice. But I think in Germany most of them do the same stuff anyway so it doesn’t matter that much. I’m very happy with what I got.
Oddly enough I obsessed A LOT over HRT and still do, the different methods and how it works etc. But with bottom surgery I didn’t research it that much, I just NEEDED to get it done so desperately, having a penis was literal torture for me and it got worse every day. Of course I looked at it enough to not get screwed over by doctors but it wasn’t nearly the amount of research & deep-diving I did with most other aspects of transition.
Nothing does that for me so far. Been on E for a bit over a month now, can’t say it made any noticeable changes to how I feel.
It comes in phases, first it might be libido dying off, then mental clarity, then the skin changing, and then the rest of the magic ✨
also probably depends on route of administration and dose - injecting sufficient doses of EV had me feeling amazing around day 3 when the estrogen seemed to turn off testosterone production for me.
Some girls take months to see lowered testosterone and are kept on low doses of oral estrogen, which just isn’t going to have the same impact mentally.
For me the libido basically dropped off after a few days (initial sudden T spike which caused libido to rise due to the sudden influx of E, then it calmed down).
Then mentally I started feeling clearer in the first month or so, a bit like I no longer laughed halfassedly when I did, and more 3/4assedly genuine, rising upward with time.
Skin started feeling softer a month after start.
Buds came in the second month.
Hairline started getting back to normal five months in, I think?
Boobs around six months and growing. And now it’s currently just continuing fat redistribution.
Body hair thinning by eight months. :3
I found estrogen actually increased my horniness, but it was a very different kind of horniness than testosterone libido (which felt “wrong” to me, and which I hated so much I wondered if I was asexual or meant to be asexual).
I sort of wish it had reduced my libido, but alas. At least now my sexuality feels more right, and it’s probably good that I didn’t completely lose libido - my partner would probably not be happy about that.
Yeah, softer skin and breast buds started early for me. My hairline is still cursed IMO, but it’s not that bad - I just don’t like the way it looks and I wonder if it will ever be better.
I would say yeah, around 6 - 8 months my boobs were noticeable and probably were helping me pass around that point.
The effects vary depending on genetics, dose, route, etc. such that we do notice lots of similar patterns but with lots of variance.
I feel bad for the girls who take oral estrogen, though - I feel like it just does not feminize as well as other routes (particularly compared to injections).
I do oral E and the changes came on hard and fast for me. Libido tanked amost instantly, and when I finally experienced girl horny, it was so foreign, I didn’t eve realize I was horny 😆. I’m about 5 months in, and I’m starting to go out without my breast forms because my boobs are getting big enough to make my bras too tight with them. I’ve upped my dose twice from 2mg to 4 and then to 6 about a couple weeks ago and each increase has come with a massive emotional spike that lasted a few days. The only other change I’ve noticed that I’m definitley not imagining is muscle atrophy. Every week or two my thighs or shoulders will start screaming like I ran a 10k with no prep, but I’m just sitting around reading 😭
Like instead of a “turn neck around for hottie and want to fuck” horniness, it being more of a “want to relax, cuddle and attach” horninesss, right? At least, that’s my experience.
I take spray in combination with antiboyotic injections, so idk how that is. But for me it’s helped, currently on size 85C.
