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3 days agoScrew you! if I wanted to have people dismiss my experiences and validity I would go back to the transphobes on Reddit!
MarthaPuppyGirl [She/Her]
Just a 23 year old trans girl, I’m post-OP but I regret it so much. I wish I could have my dick and balls back.
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Cake day: March 16th, 2026
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Oh, @ada@lemmy.blahaj.zone @LadyAutumn@lemmy.blahaj.zone I’m sorry My bad. I’ve been very volatile lately. I’m hurting very badly lately.
I was told by people I know and in support groups that it was the next stage and that if I didn’t I wouldn’t ever feel like a real woman. I was told that I would be seen as a man by others and that I could be assaulted by people I meet and hook up with. I don’t really know, I guess I believed the shit people told me and thought it was the right thing to do. It was not.
I miss peeing while standing up. I miss… (People will think I’m a troll for this)
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I miss jacking myself to porn. Touching myself in general down there. Feeling myself down there, jiggling my balls. Things I took for granted back then. I also hate dialating, I haven’t done it at all in the past 2 months. It just feels so gross to stick something inside me. I don’t even care if this rotten hole closes up. It’s not like they can fix it or put it back how it was.
I miss just having it in general. Seeing myself with a dick back then I never thought anything of it, but seeing myself with this disgusting hole in my crotch just makes me want to vomit, and always makes me cry. I look so disgusting, I know other people don’t think I would look disgusting if they saw me naked but I look disgusting to myself with a vagina. I hated it so much that I ended up breaking my bedroom mirror out of anger, sadness, and disgust. Tore a 2 inch gash in my hand doing that.
I’ll look for one. I don’t know how much it’ll help but it’s worth a try I guess. Thank you.