what stopping me - idk only p a r e n t s
im tired of boymoding
school - next year i will go to home education so no problem
society - idk im seems pass now especially with long hair and baaaaaangs
i remember prev year i switched to another class to end 9 classes of school because of bullying, new classmates was cute pretty femme(even boys) weird and im come out to some of them AND THEY ACCEPTED me, this was so comfy to go school but mom was against to going school because of that SUPPORTIVE classmates… but now in mine class are fucking terrible now and im not going to school THEY ARE toxic im not even come out but they calling me “опущенный” (prison slang for gay bottom men), “оно”(some like “they” in english but not multiple “oни”), and strictly use insult variations of dead name eg deadnamesik, usually they thread me like 3rd sort but opposite with ugly toxic masculine boy classmates, some try to press sensitive information from me
what my goal - just expression, wear that i want, look that i want, name change(but cant change gender marker)
it will be easy - i have no friends etc, most ppl dont know me, the shit from school definitly go away from this city because it small(140k population) and there no education options
i even can change name right now but im minor and need parent approval of BOTH parents (i didnt live with dad and he doesnt know anything) so problematic and plus school will see change
my parents accept transition & name change after 18 BUT NOT NOW, and even sometimes i wear neutral clothes from women section and THEY SO MUCH BETTER and clotches from men section I CANT WEAR THEM my hips are too big, i tried jacket from men section oh fuck it so tight in hip bone BONEEEE and too loose in shoulders IM SUCCESSFULLY MALEFAILING
so i think i should slowly transitioning
I wish you all the best on your way forward, I can’t provide you with any real help as I am still trying to work things out on my own and don’t know much about it all. I just want you to know that we are here to support you where we can!
Ps. I love your cat - so cute!
meow meow
What part of Russia do you live in? Would it be better somewhere like Moscow or At Petersberg? Or are you planning to leave Russia given the opportunity? I ask because before the war, my local university had a cooperation agreement with Murmansk and Arkhangelsk and would take a few students I think for free. It’s probably not going on now though. But it might restart after the war. Idk.
Women here dress up for a night out but wear smart but functional clothes otherwise.
bashkortostan and in young city in the north borders with udmurtia(try to find on openstreetmaps)
moscow is stupid putin dick lickers i seen videos from moscow from tatar-bashkort and many moscowians nazi bullying them thinking that they from middle east or armenia georgia but THEY BORN IN RUSSIA IN RUSSIAN ETHIC GROUP
and even video with semi passable women to the whole runet that she trans that is bad in moscow but i think just women with trouble passing
st petersburg i dont like climate anyway i hate megapolises
honestly i think it safe enough here and i ~passing so no problems
want i leave russia? honestly no i dont fucking care in which govrenment i live
im always hated moscow i hate this megapolis
The main problem with my town is that it has (per capita) twice as many tourists a year as Bangkok. It’s totally unaffordable to live there because of Airbnb.
I recommend talking to your mum about the science of how puberty blockers work, if they’re something you’re interested in. They delay puberty until later, and pause it if it’s already started. They don’t cause permanent changes, they delay permanent changes.
im year on estrogen lol, and mom not against it here is more about expression, social role
I know some Russian but I went to school in English. my parents were radically opposed against GAHT, I suggest you figure out whether you want it independently of them.
parents are supportive, with hrt, ok with transitioning after social problems such as school, and some other
my mom bought and chosen women jacket for me by herself, and omg its soo light and comfy have enough space in hips and overall look good, she said to try pink hoddie stayed in the fitting room before us
they ok with name change
being independently from them is lose hrt “sponsor” :3
also they avoiding deadname, and gendered words like son, etc but still doesnt gender me as girl and honestly i dont care much because there no triggers like son deadname etc
wow that’s great
heh im venting here now because my psychotherapy start only from next week and then every week
also do women & girls in your area wear hyperfem clotches like dresses, skirts? in my area I VERY RARELY see women wearing dress or skirt especially young
so im also didnt want them
