I had bottom surgery almost a year ago and I regret it so much. I didn’t say anything up to now I kept getting told that feelings of doubt and uncertainty will get better as it heals, well it’s healed for over a month and it hasn’t gone away. It’s gotten worse! I feel like I’m broken, like part of me is missing. I wish I didn’t fucking do this shit. I miss my dick and balls so much.
Don’t tell me that I don’t regret it and that regret is rare. This isn’t the first time I spoke up. I said this shit on Reddit and the dipshits who run r/trans banned me telling me that regret is rare and that I probably don’t regret it, and that the chance of me being not trans is tiny. I explained to those dumb fucks that I 100% am trans, am a woman and that I miss my dick and balls and they got me suspended for 3 days and muted me.
I absolutely regret it and I absolutely am a woman. Some days (currently now) I think about killing myself because I know I’ll never be whole again. I just want to get in my car and drive off a gate bridge, and that would be it.
Wow, what a ridiculous take from the reddit. “Regret is rare so it doesn’t exist”. Honey, BEING TRANS is relatively rare in the general population and it’s real as hell.
I wish I had better advice, but try to remember no feeling is final and there is always a tomorrow. Though it may be a hell of a battle to stay sane while going through this I know you have the strength to keep fighting as you had the strength to make such huge changes to find yourself originally, even if you might have pushed too far in that direction with that choice. Lots of love girlfriend <3