(vent not looking for advice)

for context I started seeing a psychologist last week. (I already was talking to a psychiatrist) he said “ooh you’re too young make these decisions, you might’ve manipulated when you were vulnerable” a few times during the session.

My BROTHER in christ, I’ve been suffering from gender dysphoria for nearly 4 years, it’s like someone telling someone “maybe you’re supposed to be underwater” whilst drowning. How many times do I need to say typical male identity 100% doesn’t fit me and I very well know effects of HRT. And now he wants me to write an short essay on what I went through when puberty began. What the hell do you want me to say, like “i wanna cut my penis off” or “i used to play with dolls when i was little”? after that he asked about my sexuality HOW DO HELL MY SEXUALITY RELATES TO MY GENDER IDENTITY, I especially hated it when he asked why I was trans after I told him I’m bisexual, hate how this type of cis people see gender. Felt like sisyphus trying to roll up the giant boulder while trying to explain how i think and feel.

wish I could see a queer psychologist

I’ll maybe give him another chance but I don’t think I’ll arrange another appointment.