Just venting a bit.

I expected that dysphoria will increase with more euphoria but not this fast. Before, I had dysphoria because of my presentation, fat distribution and chest but things that didn’t bother me at all started to feel wrong and I just want to get rid of them. This mainly includes body hair, genitals and facial hair.

I also need more euphoria. At this point I put on feminine clothes every time I go to the bathroom (it’s the only place where I have complete privacy). It seems like I’ll have to buy some women’s underwear to feel more comfortable (so far I only put on my mom’s clothes that is going to washing machine). I’m kinda scared to go and buy it myself, ordering online is pretty risky until I come out.