Hi, I’m not completely not ok, but my headspace is a mess, so I’d like to ask for media recommendations and tips for the panic I’m going through.
I’ve kinda known I am trans for years, but only in a dissociated, intellectualized sense, while living as a man. And recently I’ve gotten a tiny extra amount of monetary safety, enough to make me emotionally relax, and the realization of my transness hit me.
I was unable to imagine my self 5 years down there line. I drew a complete blank. My imagination suffocating between dysphoria and denial.
I’ve been seeing myself only as a girl in dreams for a week, and it has felt wonderful, and when I’m awake I’m paralyzed in dread of the amount of work in front of me, my deeply internalized misogyny about my appearence, my bigoted (though “safe enough”) surrounding people…
Question, what have you watched that brought you trans joy? Encouragement to go on towards something worth it.
And, in more mentally panicky matters, what do I do about an incredible amount and thickness of body hair? I know that the very dark coloration of it makes laser an option, I’ve heard electrolysis is underrated, but those seem like absolutely enormous steps right now. What can be easy, early, discreet steps I can take for some euphoria?
That’s not quite correct. It gets said that way because the US has very specific requirements for what can be called permanent hair removal and what can’t. Laser does do permanent hair removal. It just never gets 100% of your hairs, and some of the ones it does get will grow back. But the vast majority of lasered hairs will be zapped, and zapped permanently.
A common approach is to laser the majority of the hair on your face, and then finish off the stragglers with electrolysis.
I’ve got dark hair and light skin, and I lasered my face between 8 and 9 years ago, and I’ve never had electrolysis, because I’ve never needed it. The few hairs that did escape my laser treatment are small enough in quantity that I tweeze them. Maybe 3 or 4 a day. That’s pretty permanent hair removal :)
yes, I didn’t mean to imply anything to the contrary; I should have said something like “official” form of permanent hair removal - it’s also my experience that laser does result in permanent hair loss
I also have only had laser on my face (though not as long ago as 8 years), and I have no beard shadow and like you the remaining hairs are few enough that I could probably manage them with tweezing (I use a little battery-operated face shaver because I’m still getting laser treatments in the hope it might eliminate the remainder of hairs - so far there hasn’t been much luck).