Hi, I’m not completely not ok, but my headspace is a mess, so I’d like to ask for media recommendations and tips for the panic I’m going through.
I’ve kinda known I am trans for years, but only in a dissociated, intellectualized sense, while living as a man. And recently I’ve gotten a tiny extra amount of monetary safety, enough to make me emotionally relax, and the realization of my transness hit me.
I was unable to imagine my self 5 years down there line. I drew a complete blank. My imagination suffocating between dysphoria and denial.
I’ve been seeing myself only as a girl in dreams for a week, and it has felt wonderful, and when I’m awake I’m paralyzed in dread of the amount of work in front of me, my deeply internalized misogyny about my appearence, my bigoted (though “safe enough”) surrounding people…
Question, what have you watched that brought you trans joy? Encouragement to go on towards something worth it.
And, in more mentally panicky matters, what do I do about an incredible amount and thickness of body hair? I know that the very dark coloration of it makes laser an option, I’ve heard electrolysis is underrated, but those seem like absolutely enormous steps right now. What can be easy, early, discreet steps I can take for some euphoria?
I assume you’re talking about removing it? And by discreet you mean you’d rather deal with it by yourself for now?
First step would of course be shaving or waxing, the latter being more effective. Or hair removal cream for something in-between.
You can also buy IPL hair removal devices for use at home, although laser would be a more efficient option.
Or just get on HRT and it will slow down and (potentially) thin out a bit :3
if they’re thinking about getting laser anytime soon, waxing would potentially complicate that - I would probably recommend sticking with shaving (less painful, won’t interfere with laser)
And lemme ask, how long is “soon” in this context?
if you wax hair, the minimum is like 2 - 3 weeks, but follicles might take a full three months before regrowing enough to get zapped by the laser - basically if you’re planning on laser in the next 3 - 6 months I wouldn’t wax that area.
I did do a bunch of waxing early on, but it was really painful and didn’t really last long. If you do wax, I suggest a hard wax and not a honey / soft wax. Hard wax is better on the thick follicles and I found it much less painful.