I wasn’t trying to use triggering language and I’m sorry if I triggered people talking about my own experiences. I’m not a transphobic person, at least not outwardly. I do struggle a lot with internalized transphobia and self-doubt. Especially in recent times. I still sometimes feel like I might be faking transness because of my regrets about GRS. I know I’m not, and I know that I was incredibly happy about every other aspect of my transition, but I still get these thoughts.

I never intended to hurt or invalidate anyone or support those narratives bigots use about trans regret. For the record I hate those assholes. When I came out about my regret on Reddit many of them commented misgendering me and trying to convince me that I’m a man because of my regret. I don’t support these awful narratives about trans people. I know that so many trans people do not regret bottom surgery, and I know cases like mine are rare. I know that this was my fuck up as much as I might blame the transmedicalists who said those evil things to me. I didn’t do research, I didn’t get second opinions. I trusted them and lied to my therapist to get something I never wanted in the first place. I fucked myself over. This is all on me.

I never intended to invalidate, trigger, or hurt anyone. I’m sorry if I did. I just want to be happy again, I just want to feel okay again, I don’t want to hate seeing myself naked and hate waking up. I’m sorry about pain or harm I caused.