I wasn’t trying to use triggering language and I’m sorry if I triggered people talking about my own experiences. I’m not a transphobic person, at least not outwardly. I do struggle a lot with internalized transphobia and self-doubt. Especially in recent times. I still sometimes feel like I might be faking transness because of my regrets about GRS. I know I’m not, and I know that I was incredibly happy about every other aspect of my transition, but I still get these thoughts.

I never intended to hurt or invalidate anyone or support those narratives bigots use about trans regret. For the record I hate those assholes. When I came out about my regret on Reddit many of them commented misgendering me and trying to convince me that I’m a man because of my regret. I don’t support these awful narratives about trans people. I know that so many trans people do not regret bottom surgery, and I know cases like mine are rare. I know that this was my fuck up as much as I might blame the transmedicalists who said those evil things to me. I didn’t do research, I didn’t get second opinions. I trusted them and lied to my therapist to get something I never wanted in the first place. I fucked myself over. This is all on me.

I never intended to invalidate, trigger, or hurt anyone. I’m sorry if I did. I just want to be happy again, I just want to feel okay again, I don’t want to hate seeing myself naked and hate waking up. I’m sorry about pain or harm I caused.

  • Ada@lemmy.blahaj.zoneMEnglish
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    3 days ago

    Putting on my instance admin hat, and my moderator hat, you are welcome here, and you are welcome to talk about your experiences here. You are one of us, and this is your space as much as anyone elses!

    Some tips though. You can add content warnings in the title. A NSFW tag helps, but you can also add in something like “CW: Surgery regret” in the title. That lets people who know it’s a triggering topic for them avoid the whole discussion, without having to click on it to find out what it’s about.

    And as I said in a reply elsewhere, you need to be careful about the language you use. You don’t have to hide your pain or trauma when talking about your own experiences and doubts, but you do need to be careful when you’re making generalisations and using language that applies to folk other than yourself. You need to make sure that your words are talking about your experience. But that goes both ways! The same care and consideration I’m asking of you when you talk about topics that can trigger other folk, is also owed to you when people are talking to you. No one gets to tell you who you are, or tell you how to feel.