(vent not looking for advice)
for context I started seeing a psychologist last week. (I already was talking to a psychiatrist) he said “ooh you’re too young make these decisions, you might’ve manipulated when you were vulnerable” a few times during the session.
My BROTHER in christ, I’ve been suffering from gender dysphoria for nearly 4 years, it’s like someone telling someone “maybe you’re supposed to be underwater” whilst drowning. How many times do I need to say typical male identity 100% doesn’t fit me and I very well know effects of HRT. And now he wants me to write an short essay on what I went through when puberty began. What the hell do you want me to say, like “i wanna cut my penis off” or “i used to play with dolls when i was little”? after that he asked about my sexuality HOW DO HELL MY SEXUALITY RELATES TO MY GENDER IDENTITY, I especially hated it when he asked why I was trans after I told him I’m bisexual, hate how this type of cis people see gender. Felt like sisyphus trying to roll up the giant boulder while trying to explain how i think and feel.
wish I could see a queer psychologist
I’ll maybe give him another chance but I don’t think I’ll arrange another appointment.
Sounds like you need to find a better therapist. Therapists shouldn’t judge you only see you through your eyes, but sounds like this one has conservative views on gender and sexuality and can’t separate those from their job. Unfortunately, all top common. I had to wait on a waiting list for over a year to get one that was accepting of my gender, sexuality, and neurodivergence and not try to diminish any of them or reduce them to more simple constructs to fit the limited views they were taught.