I just read this article about beauty standards and while I see the excess of it as harmful I can’t help but feel hypocritical when I think about laser or hormones or even putting on eye shadow and mascara, not to mention FFS.

Every time I read a piece on self-acceptance and body-positivity I stop and ask myself - why can’t I be happy with my body? For me the dysphoria is mostly social but even then - why can’t I just accept my AGAB and live with it? How is changing my body to fit opposing gender norms (so I pass etc) different to gender-affirming procedures for one’s AGAB?

Both require the same underlying systems - and my face laser wouldn’t be attainable without the massive beauty industry making it affordable by virtue of many cis women using the service.

Similar with hormones. If most postmenopausal women didn’t get E prescribed, then it would be prohibitaly expensive (I guess this is a weaker point since hormones are beneficial for health reasons not just beauty) but still my use case is mostly aesthetical (to pass) so that feels even less justified.

It feels as if my transition is only possible because it’s either subsidised by an industry I see as harmful or via methods not intended for their initial purpose.

Anyone else struggle with any of this?

  • Berengaria_of_Navarre@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    16 hours ago

    I don’t want hormones to change my appearance per se. I want them to help me avoid going to prison for beating my neighbour to death. I’ve been experiencing constant unwavering rage since I was a teenager and using all my mental energy on not acting on it. I’m fucking tired.

    I’m not going to pass as cis but I might pass as human, if I flush the rage juice out of my body. That’s the dream. Don’t get me wrong I’d love to live as a woman but if I think about it I sort of already am living as a woman, just a very angry one.

      • Berengaria_of_Navarre@lemmy.worldEnglish
        1·
        12 hours ago

        Essentially. I believe it’s going to be sent soon and I’m curious as to wether it:

        A) works and I start brewing injectable estrogen in my kitchen.

        Or

        B) doesn’t work and I start brewing anthrax in my kitchen.