So as some of you probably seen, I finally started HRT and I am absolutely loving it. I am doing some higher doses for the beginning to get my levels up fast (5mg every 3 days for 3 injections and then 5mg every 7 days) and I am starting to feel the first emotional changes happening. I am feeling my inner girl without drugs for the first time in my life. I have never experienced this level of joy and happiness before. The level of Euphoria just looking at my beautiful nails gives me is insane. Im also currently at the edge of crying just from listening to some music. It feels absolutely fantastic. I did knew roughly what HRT would bring me emotionally, but not even in my wildest dreams could I have Imagined this level of Euphoria and happiness. Theres no realy way to put this into words without repeating myself a million times.
Anyway, I wish all of you girlies a wonderfull day and for all of my sisters out there struggling with dysphoria and waiting for HRT: Stay strong, it gets better 💖🫂
I hear ya, I had the same fears and wanted to make the transition as smooth as possible.
You’ll never know how fast and how your body will change on transition. The best indicators are your siblings and parents, after that niblings, auncles and first cousins.
What I did was start in spring (mostly coincidence, but a good one). That helped because by the time the changes would be more visible, fall was at the door, and so I could hide it with thicker clothes. Dressing in boring neutral fashion also helps.
But otherwise, a binder/sports bra might a possibility. They flatten it a bit. Vice versa I wore shape forms at home, initially, that helped me a lot during dysphoric attacks.
And very true, it’ll be better in a while. I feel like that if someone has a doubt of their gender, they should be open and free to explore it (mind the egg prime directive though!).
To those not sure whether to go on HRT or not – the mental effects come first, physical after. Up to about 3 months it’s generally reversible either way, so after that period should be a good indicator for what someone feels they want, whether to continue or not, it’s all valid.
The calming effect is such a big thing! Previously I’d feel distracted by the sex drive a ton, but now that’s much less the case. It’s as if instead of my body parts thinking for me, I’m deciding that for them. Back in control!
I’ve never had DMT. Weed though… I think aside from the strange laughter if it’s too strong, it’s likewise more relaxing, but that’s on me, I guess.
I had that impostor thing too. I think it would be less the case if less people were still held back in old mindsets, and more of the mindset of “Do whatever you like, slay. Why should I care if it doesn’t harm anybody, when it makes you happy?” I felt liberated from it once I realised I shouldn’t look at stereotypically feminine outfits, and more at how cis women generally dress - just like me. Getting on E helped too, though.
I’m not sure whether the near future will be as open, but I am certain that as Sappho put it, “even in another time”, we will have our liberation. And to heck - I am going to live my best life and so will you. We should see the general queer community as our friends and vice versa :)
I like your idea about us being normal, ha. But when nobody is normal, everyone is. Screw labels, blåhaj hugging forever.
Yes. You seem really cool. Idk why I put the DMT reference in there. I don’t do drugs or anything and never really have outside of weed.
I know it’s what I want to do. Not just because I want to do it, but because I already am and always was a lady. Of course I am because why would anyone want to be the other gender if they weren’t already? Either way, to heck with gender! Humans have really not done well in history. I know much of that was sort of necessary in some ways, but human history is a history of exploitation and terrorism and brainwashing. Even if I die in my transition I will die happy and unafraid. Even if most people don’t understand me, they don’t understand me anyways but, at least now I understand myself. When I admired I was trans 4 years ago. I have found a deep happiness from it that hasn’t went away since then.
I hope your dreams come true and the world is kind to you…