So, I recently watched “I saw the TV glow” and unsurprisingly all the stories about people having the cry of their life do not come out of nowhere. I never was someone who would cry that easily over a movie (although this is starting to change with HRT), but this movie literally send me into quite a solid cry. It wasn’t really caused by the film being that sad, but from me realising how insanely accurate it displayed my personal experience. The harm that was caused by me suppressing my feelings and their constant fight to break free. Being invisible to others, etc. That shit brought up quite a lot of stuff that I have already worked through, but when all of it gets brought up at the same time, it does get quite overwhelming.
I will 100% rewatch it, since I did not understand a lot of the subtle signs, that were integrated into the film, at first glance.
The thing that struck me most about it was the idea (from Owen’s perspective) of actually being a character in a TV show you watch. Before cracking, I’d fantasize about being a women in pretty much the same way as you’d daydream about being in the world of a book or movie. Nice to think about, but in no way connected to reality. Until one day you stick your head through the screen and achieve what you thought was impossible.
And I guess to some people your old self is just gone, and they can’t see that you’re now more real than the world they’re stuck in.
I love that movie so much.