(Not sure if this is allowed here but need some help/support)
Update 2/ getting a blood test tomorrow which includes hormone testing…thank you for your comments and help :) Update/ just about to go for a GP appointment regarding “early menopause”. If anyone has any advice on what I can say to help my case I’d appreciate it. Thanks.
ETA- I’m in the UK. Anyone have any info or advice is welcomed. Edit 2- I just asked my GP about getting my hormones tested…waiting on their response e3- also my dad made a comment saying I look trans a couple yrs ago and he’s not wrong tbh. It’s so hard not comparing myself to my sisters especially and other women in my family.
I don’t feel like a natural woman. Like the Portishead song “I just wanna be a woman”…
I just wanna feel like the the other women in my family and the gender I was assigned at birth but I just feel like the grinch. I literally feel like my body is all wrong and I can’t just “accept” it and be grateful.
Mtf (in my case, masc to femme) I probably have hormonal imbalances or something. My life is awful. If y’all can take it at the ages you do, I feel like I should be allowed to at 23…
Euthanasia is on the cards atp…I just wanna stop feeling worthless
Just chiming in as a mod to let you know that you are welcome in the community. If transfeminine is a term that you feel associated with or that bears meaning for you then you are welcome here. :) no matter what gender you were assigned at birth.
That being said, I worry a lot about some of the language youre using for yourself here and throughout this thread. Do you feel like you get the chance to engage in femininity much? Do you feel a connection to your own womanhood? How often do you feel like you get to nurture that connection, like engage in activities that make you feel feminine in a positive way? Hormones are absolutely a crucial part of the equation, but self care is a huge part as well. It’s often neglected.
I also will point you away from terms like “natural woman”. Not because I dont understand what youre trying to say, but to reinforce that being a woman isn’t predicated on having a certain body or appearing a certain way or even having certain hormones. Its also extremely concerning and gross that your father would make comments about you that way, whatever his intentions with them may be. I’m sorry you experienced that.
Youll find a lot of folks here who understand what its like to compare themselves to other women around them and feel inadequate and outcasts. You’re in a good place.
Thank youuu 💜
And I’m sorry if I offended with saying “natural woman” I think it comes from comparing myself a lot and seeing my bubbly and confident sisters and then how opposite I feel.
I dont feel like I engage in femininity or connected to my womanhood etc. and I feel like part of that is because I don’t have much motivation to like maybe my sisters might… so I wanna take hrt in the hopes it will change that.