I posted this in the wrong meme community. Reposting here.
I’m AMAB who has always felt a little uncomfortable in my own skin. I’m decently comfortable occupying my body, but I do wish it was easier/more acceptable to transition. I had a dream last night that I was at a doctor’s office and I was starting HRT. It has put me in a funk all day.
To be honest, I consider myself fluid enough to continue identifying as a man to anyone but myself. I just wish I could live two lives. Or go back and make the decision to transition when I was younger. I am a stereotypical guy: hairier than not, chubbier than not, deep brow, gnarled hands, etc. I don’t really think I could ever feel truly “woman enough” to feel comfortable trying out the other side of the gender spectrum. I’ve tried growing my hair, piercing my ears, and wearing a teeny bit of eye liner, but it just never looked right on me. I just looked a bit weird.
I’m venting here to hopefully deal with the funky vibes my dream gave me. I’ve never been this open with any audience: virtual or physical. So, apologies if this is coming off a bit transphobic in any way.
I mean I’m not surprised you didn’t feel better with those, it’s like a limited taste. And not a full taste either. Idk it really is never too late to start. I think the hardest part is realistic expectations, you can either work with what you’ve got or you can keep pushing it down until you’re even older
That is a haunting last sentence. But you’re probably right.
Yeah, once you actually know what you need to keep mulling it over is to just give yourself less time to have it.
I think that before the Internet you could go longer without thinking about a lot of this stuff but with how are media works? it’ll be constantly on your mind.
Yeah and it has been constantly on my mind since my original post.