I feel like the world has placed an challenge on my shoulders I cannot and will not overcome, from a young age I’ve been considered unattractive, people treated me as if I wasn’t human, people used to use tissue paper to hand me things, make faces at me and treat me as if I was sick. On top of this I have abused by my father, when I was 14 I realized I was a women and thought hrt would fix me if I just held out long enough to start it, unfortunately after 3 years hrt, a year on injections many elements of myself are horrible, the only difference is I get the same treatment mixed in with transphobia, i feel like the only reasonable conclusion I can come to is death. I’m sorry I feel like the world wanted me to prove you don’t have to be attractive to be trans. Unfortunately that weight has proved way to much, I’m sorry to my friends I know they tried and tried, but I know normal people can only do much. I’m sorry to society, I know my life was supposed be some learning lessons but fuck I’m a human bein
Hey! I work in a place that provides a place for people with handicaps. There are many people there that society considers repulsive and freaks, but I see them on a daily basis smiling and enjoying their lives. I am not saying that such a place is for you, I just wanted to say that even if mainstream society rejects you, there will be places that will accept you. I can only encourage you to seek professionals that can help you overcome your hurdle and find a place to strive. Best of luck!