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Cake day: December 31st, 2023











  • Let’s reframe that. Instead of thinking “I don’t have much dysphoria so maybe I’m not trans” you should ask yourself “what do I think I can do to have the most enjoyable life possible?”.

    You’re allowed to change your mind, you’re allowed to make suboptimal decisions, and most decisions are reversible so for those you don’t really have to consider long-term consequences. If you want to identify some way, even just to test it out, go for it! You can change that later if it doesn’t fit, and there’s not much harm to it. Even if you’re mistaken, it usually just means you ended up experiencing more awkward time than necessary, not much of a consequence.

    The hardest part is probably gonna be getting over the fear of being wrong, of feeling like you lied to people. You didn’t, there’s nothing wrong with being mistaken. But I know the brain gets anxious over it 🫂. I hope you have a wonderful life wherever it takes you.








    • Hated being topless, even while swimming
    • Curious how having boobs would feel
    • Drawn to lesbian relationships
    • Never even tried to look good as a man
    • Been taking antidepressants since a little after puberty
    • Cried when a psychiatry form asked if I had thoughts of being the opposite gender
    • Hated being juxtaposed to men
    • Didn’t dream much about romance or sex because every time I thought about them they would just feel underwhelming and draining
    • When I imagined myself following a similar life path to my dad or any other male figure, I felt like life wasn’t worth living if that was my future
    • Wished I was born a different person, because I had no attachment to who I was and nothing to lose
    • Disassociating in the mirror
    • Hated being seen as a big man, I wanted to be seen as soft instead
    • Just like, all the signs that who I presented as made me feel awful