Thanks so much. Its hard to believe in the idea that I can still get my life together down the road when everyone I used to know already have 50k cars from their parents, housing for the next 4 years paid off for collage, connections, and a path forward. While I’m one missed paycheck away from not having insurance on my car. I got plans how to live the life I wanna and determination to make it, but life does not like to play by my rules lol

Sorry for the confusion but I’ve already moved out and have a job, unfortunately due to hurry of almost going homeless I moved in with a friends family (who im greatful charge me very little a month but their not fun to live with) and the only work I could find is at a warehouse for a retail store (so the culture is extreamly right wing). I just wish between paying bills, navigating the extream republican town im in, and just regular mental illness issues I barely have the time or energy to keep my life together much less try and transition :(

Thanks, I’m not lost for hope that I’ll have my day, but after hiding everything for so long from my family and reaching so close to being her. This waiting another unknown span of time before I move out again v2 eletric boogaloo and then have to save the money to transition (even basics like fem clothes) just feels so defeating sometimes. And unfortunately the friends I had were supportive of me, but wernt exactly close friends to me, and their all living their lives in collage now while I work full time

But at the end of the day Im extreamly stubborn and I’ll keep trying to make a better tomorrow. Honestly I just wish I wouldnt have to go through these long stretches of “waiting for the day I can be alive again” alone