Thanks a lot! Yes, a lot of what I’ve written about were things I’ve personally been through, or experiences I’ve heard from other trans people. I’ve also wanted to have several trans women in the book precisely so I could cover a lot of different stories. Also, the mares thing was inspired by conjugated estrogens that people used as HRT in the past.

As for the ending, it’s supposed to catch you off-guard, so I’m glad I managed to pull that off lol. You spend most of the book not knowing much about Julia, up until the very end, and then it becomes clear why she acted the way she did throughout the whole book.

Thank you!

You’ve commented on some of the previous ones too, right? Thank you, I really appreciate it.

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Thank you!

This is the last poem I wanted to share here.

I’d like to thank you all for reading, and I sincerely appreciate all of your kind comments. I’m glad to know my poems resonated with so many people – that’s why I wanted to share them here, in the first place.

The only thing I still have to share is a short novel I wrote, that I mentioned in an earlier comment, but it’s still being reviewed. Who knows how long it will take. And of course, I know I’ll keep writing – but inspiration is fickle and hard to come by. I may come back with something else in the future.

Thanks again!

Thank you!

I remember you shared the letter here. I’m glad to know her initial reaction was good. Things won’t always go smoothly between you, but as long as she’s trying to understand and support you, it’ll be alright. Good luck on your journey!

Oh, I see! Thank you

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Also, the fact that I went “I wonder what would happen if I were a girl” instead of “I wonder what would happen if he wasn’t straight” is quite telling

I did, and he turned me down. We’re still good friends to this day though, so it wasn’t a bad ending either.

I haven’t done electrolysis myself, only laser, but as far as I know, with electrolysis you have to run a needle through each hair individually, while laser can cover a large area at once. I’ve heard many people do laser first to massively reduce the amount of hair per area, then electrolysis to kill off the few remaining hairs.

Thank you! To be honest, I’m a bit surprised that a guy would like this poem, though.

I wasn’t expecting to get a poem back! And it’s a really good one too. Thank you <3

Actually, I’ve written this many years ago. This is pretty good advice though.

Alright, listen.

I understand you’re considering starting HRT, and that’s a big decision, so it’s only natural you have fears and doubts. It’s also natural to seek advice and confirmation from people who have already been through this process.

You ask what it was like when we decided to do it. I believe you want to know what it feels like – what is the feeling we had when we were certain, when we knew for sure that this is what we wanted. Well, allow me tell you.

That feeling doesn’t exist.

I also had doubts when I started. But I started anyway, because, given what I knew at the time, I believed it was the right choice. Now I can tell you that starting HRT is the best thing I’ve ever done – but this is something I can only tell you in hindsight.

Your post is very similar to several ones I have seen from questioning people asking what it feels like to know you’re trans, or what was the moment when you figured it out. They seem to believe they can’t act on their feelings until they’re 100% sure. They seem to believe there is a magic moment when all doubts disappear. Well, there isn’t.

Mind you, I’m not telling you to start right away either – it’s perfectly fine to take your time and think it through. Hell, I’m not even telling you to start at all. You’re the only one who can tell if this is right for you. It’s a frustrating answer, I know, but it’s the only honest one I can give you.

I hope this doesn’t come across as rude, but I’m honestly tired of seeing trans people riddled with imposter syndrome, second-guessing every step they take, and holding themselves to an unrealistic standard of being absolutely certain of everything. You will always have doubts. Don’t let them paralyze you.

That works too.

This is pretty good. I do have a few suggestions, but of course, these are only suggestions – it’s your letter, and your mom, after all.

First, I understand that you kept the masculine form of words because you don’t want to overwhelm your mom, right? I definitely understand that, but I think it sends a dubious message as well. You’re saying you’re trans, but you’re still referring to yourself with male terms. That could certainly backfire – at worst, your mom could infer that deep down, you don’t really see yourself as a woman after all. Have you considered switching halfway from masculine to feminine words instead? For example, from the “I’m pretty sure I’m transgender” point onward. That really drives the point home of “you’ve known me as a man up until now, but from now on I want you to treat me as a woman”.

Also, at some point you say “I don’t know what you’ve heard about trans people” which leads me to think she might have some misconceptions and prejudice. Many people associate being trans with “moral degradation”, so at worst, she might think of your coming out as a sign that you’re going to start using drugs and whatnot… It might be a good idea to emphasize that you’re still the same person as always, only your gender isn’t what they thought.

Having said all that, I hope it goes well for you.

Thank you. When I wrote this poem, I did it out of frustration because everyone was asking me to be something I wasn’t. Much like you, I was still figuring things out. Nowadays I have a much clearer view – not only of who I am, but also of gender as a whole. I absolutely agree with you, gender roles are oppressive and absurd. I believe they should be abolished. Gender identity, on the other hand, is innate to us all, even if most people (i.e. cis people) don’t even realize they have one. But cis or trans, AMAB people should be allowed to wear dresses and paint their nails if they want to. Navigating this needlessly cruel and restrictive system is hard to us all.

Anyways, good luck to you, and stay safe.