Entered late egg stage at 15 I kinda knew then, I repressed from 17 to 18+1/2, after that I started exploring my gender again (stuff like shaving leg, epilating, etc…) and eventually realised I wasn’t living for myself but for others when I was 19 (2-3 months away from turning 20) and decided then and there that I would transition, I came out to my parents a month after and tried to get HRT immediately, at the same time I changed my pronouns and my name with them as well, it took me nearly five months to be able to start the treatment (had to store my sperm). I was 20 and now I’m 7months on HRT :)

I understand not feeling valid enough for HRT the best way I can put it is: put aside the validity of your trans identity, do you want all the effects of HRT despite the “downsides”? you don’t have to be trans to get HRT.

I’ve progressively come to the realisation that I do indeed want GRS, I always wanted FFS and GRS felt less important, but as time goes on I realise that, I’m never going to have a fullfilling sex life with my current equipment…

Yeah, call me old fashioned XD Thanks for your replies :)

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My country has a small queer community and an even smaller portion of ppl who are tech savvy enough to use mastodon. And an even tinier portion might live in my region.

I should maybe make a post to see how it goes but tbh I’m not getting my hopes up…

There might not be big enough of a community though :(

I probably should yeah 👍

Thank you yes, it could be a reason why but, idk being confident seems easy to say, in practice I can only seem confident even right now, I’m not where I want to be though.

🫂 I don’t want to have to use a dating app but to be fair it might be impossible without😮‍💨

I’m only weak when she talks to me.😔

Oh gosh I’m so sorry! I’m going to put a TW in the title.

Thank you!!😊 They are still small but with the way things are going they might get bigger :D

I’m of the opinion that a being trans doesn’t really matter that much, it’s more of a matter of doing what feels best, you don’t need a label to decide what you should do and who you should be. If a label is what you are after though, you could identify as non binary if that feels better, it does fall under the trans umbrella too.

🫂💙🫂💖🫂🤍🫂💖🫂💙🫂

I think it’s SERM’s, sounds cool! Good luck on your journey :)

OMG thank you so much that was so kind and informative 💜💜💜

And yeah I agree having people that know about your gender identity tell you that you look fem without justification feels like they’re just trying to please you. In that sense not being out as a trans woman is great because people comment on your femininity and you know it’s genuine even though it can be used as an insult (call me a lesser man I’ll nearly enjoy it lmao).

And yeah hang in there Hugu it’s not easy, I’m sure you’ll look the way you want soon enough!💜 Can I ask if you are considering HRT?

Really kind comment, thanks a lot! ☺️💜

I think the thing I would think about is if you’re okay with people deciding who you are

Well In a way I like it because it means they see me as something different from a man without me even asking them to do anything that’s very validating for me. But yeah I’m scared that might happen indeed.

For my transition I’m not looking to be seen as or called a boy - period, so being called a femboy would cause me the same pangs as being misgendered.

Well I am boymoding so I suppose it’s a step up?

I am 100% toying with the idea of asking them to use feminine pronouns to refer to me. Though I’m scared of being seen as illegitimate. I still have some beard shadow I can’t get rid of without laser.

Yeah I’m in one of those countries where trans people are starting to enter public consciousness but are still mostly ignored. But some ppl know about us in that sense my group is a bit progressive, they know another trans woman, she did a lot of shitty stuff (Ava Tyson style) and they keep deadnaming and misgendering her, even if I come out to them my identity is only going to be respected conditionally kind of like a favour. So I feel like I need to go about it progressively.

Thanks, yes, I am boymoding so I suppose being a femboy is a step up. 💜

Try not to compare yourself to ppl, besides I don’t look as fem as you think I do I still get violently SIIIIR’d.

The femboy thing is likely because:

• I wear nail polish all the time
• I voice train all the time so my voice is relatively high pitched.
• I epilate everything
• I know and meet a lot of people it’s kinda bound to happen in those circumstances.

I will admit that HRT did do it’s job, but before V said anything no one told me I looked fem.

There is also the possibility that your friends don’t see you changing, if you knew them pre transition and still see them regularly they might not notice, but if someone new is brought into the equation then it might happen. You’re a trans woman even if you don’t pass you’re still miles more feminine than any other cis dude around you!💜