Here’s the thing though: Assuming I adapted to the people around me, as I misinterpreted some things and built an identity around something that wasn’t quite right, losing that because it turns out I was “faking it”, would make me sad.

There are other pointers in that direction, like how when I feel subby, is when I most desire feeling fem, implying an internal connection between bottoming and femininity. But of course that an also simply be wanting to be cute, which is totally normal.

There’s many explanations both ways for things, so I always end up uncertain.