I think it’s definitely something to explore more. I was never really uncomfortable with my body, and when I started working out heavily, I was actually pretty happy for a bit. However, there was also that background thought over time of “It’d be cool to be a girl” and once I started exploring my femme side, I very quickly realized how much happier I was.
It’s one of the cruel things about the way trans people have been presented over the years, as feeling “trapped in the wrong body” and having this active hatred towards your AGAB. I figured that just because I was “okay” with being a guy, I wasn’t actually trans or anything, and wanting to be a woman was just something everyone did. It wasn’t until I started transitioning that I realized how much I did actively dislike my masculinity, but societal expectations told me that’s what I just had to suck it up and deal with it, and enjoy what few parts I could.
Just food for thought more than anything else, and echo the fact that the worst case is finding out what makes you happiest.
I cannot blame you for that. Being a guy (read: comfortably male) is very difficult in modern society. It’s far too wraped up in belligerent confidance in status quo more than what it means to be male.
I think it’s definitely something to explore more. I was never really uncomfortable with my body, and when I started working out heavily, I was actually pretty happy for a bit. However, there was also that background thought over time of “It’d be cool to be a girl” and once I started exploring my femme side, I very quickly realized how much happier I was.
It’s one of the cruel things about the way trans people have been presented over the years, as feeling “trapped in the wrong body” and having this active hatred towards your AGAB. I figured that just because I was “okay” with being a guy, I wasn’t actually trans or anything, and wanting to be a woman was just something everyone did. It wasn’t until I started transitioning that I realized how much I did actively dislike my masculinity, but societal expectations told me that’s what I just had to suck it up and deal with it, and enjoy what few parts I could.
Just food for thought more than anything else, and echo the fact that the worst case is finding out what makes you happiest.
Masculinity is a terrible way to view being male.
I mean, thats fair enough, but even as a not particularly masculine male, I didn’t enjoy being a guy.
I cannot blame you for that. Being a guy (read: comfortably male) is very difficult in modern society. It’s far too wraped up in belligerent confidance in status quo more than what it means to be male.