As someone who gave in once, I can tell you it usually doesn’t work out to deny.
I made an appointment for HRT, saw the Endocrinologist, and cancelled the follow up which I’d receive the meds the day before it happened. The entire time I kept telling myself that I’d still be “me” but doing HRT in secrecy from friends/family/society. I chopped my 3.5 years of hair off, grew my beard for the first time ever, then by 2/3 months later decided I hated that. Nearly a year later, I was back at a new DR appointment for HRT. I’ve been on HRT for over 3 years now, with bottom surgery just 3 weeks away.
Not saying this doesn’t guarantee someone could permanently back out, but it’s very unlikely that you’re capping to yourself if you’ve already got the appointments set up.
As someone who gave in once, I can tell you it usually doesn’t work out to deny.
I made an appointment for HRT, saw the Endocrinologist, and cancelled the follow up which I’d receive the meds the day before it happened. The entire time I kept telling myself that I’d still be “me” but doing HRT in secrecy from friends/family/society. I chopped my 3.5 years of hair off, grew my beard for the first time ever, then by 2/3 months later decided I hated that. Nearly a year later, I was back at a new DR appointment for HRT. I’ve been on HRT for over 3 years now, with bottom surgery just 3 weeks away.
Not saying this doesn’t guarantee someone could permanently back out, but it’s very unlikely that you’re capping to yourself if you’ve already got the appointments set up.